Losing Faith

How do you restore faith once it’s been lost?

I don’t know about you, but I’m a writer who is full of self-doubt that only gets worse the older I get.  Rather cynical for a girl of 24, but there it is.

I’ve known for almost two decades that I was going to be a writer.  I’ve always known that I would have to be in a creative or artistic field; my brain isn’t suited for business or anything that deals with a lot of people.  (Oddly enough, I can handle being a librarian, mostly because I love books so much.  But that’s about the only “normal” job I can hold and not go crazy or totally mess up.)  Writing is really my only talent.  I know this.  And yet, I still have doubts about becoming a successful writer.

When I was younger, I really didn’t have plan about how I was going to become a published author…but I didn’t feel I needed one.  I knew what I could do, what I wanted to do, and all I had to do was do it.  I didn’t have any doubts about my eventual success.  And yet, now I believe that it’s highly unlikely that I will ever achieve publication of any kind.  I don’t even know if I’m capable of finishing anything anymore.  For at least six months, that thought has paralyzed me.  My depression was in full swing and only getting worse.  I’d managed to stem the tide with anime, but that wasn’t enough anymore.  I was losing my writing, my faith in writing, and I didn’t know how to stop it.

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Handling Dry Spells

Every writer goes through dry spells.  Some people call this phenomenon “writer’s block,” but I think writer’s block and dry spells are two different things.  Writer’s block is when you are working on a story and keep hitting a brick wall.  You have a scene you need to write, or an assignment to finish and you just sit and stare blankly at the screen.  You want to write, but the words just don’t come.

In contrast, I think of a dry spell as a time when your very creativity dries up.  It’s not that you don’t know what to write or how to write it, but rather you don’t even feel like writing.

Personally, I find dry spells far more terrifying than writer’s block.

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